A Study In Satin

Part 3 - Dum Vivimus Vivamus


by Tigger



Chapter 7 - Feminine Terror in the Dark


The world began shaking madly and all Irene could do was hold on. 
"TANTE IRENE!  TANTE IRENE!  WAKE UP!  OH, PLEASE WAKE UP!"

Bleary eyes opened, and then blinked hard several times.  Surely,
she was still dreaming.  Irene opened her eyes again and forced
them to stay open. *My god, it is Katrina next to my bed.  She IS
nude. . .except for that rather lewd pantalette, and she IS
frantic.* "Wha. . . ," Irene's still sleeping tongue tried to get
out, "What . . is . . wrong?"

"Oh you MUST come," Katrina wailed, her hands grabbing and
Irene's arms and jerking the larger woman from her warm bed with
unusual strength.  "Oh, God, Tante Irene, I have killed her! 
There is so much blood!  I tried to be gentle, but it was so
exciting and she kept telling me to go harder and faster and. .
."

Irene was now awake enough to free an arm and put a silencing
hand to her daughter's mouth.  "Quiet, dear.  Is it Sherla?"  The
still hand-silenced girl nodded vigorously.  Irene looked down at
the man-made phallus hanging from Katrina's drawers and saw the
rust colored stains up and down its length. *It could be nothing,
and yet, we don't know how fully female or how fully mature
Sherla's transformed woman's parts really are.*

Both hurried back to Sherla's bed chamber where pitifully
agonized moans and groans greeted their arrival.  "Irene, is that
you?  Oh, god, help me.  I think I am dying!" Sherla said, stress
and pain evident in every word.

Irene sped into the candlelit room.  The sheets were a crimson
mess about a  Sherla's hips and thighs.  The girl had rolled
herself into the fetal position, and Irene could see the glint of
tears reflecting the candle's light on her cheeks.  

Refusing to panic, Irene put a hand on Sherla's forehead, finding
it warm and not cool as she would have found it from blood loss
had the girl been hemorrhaging.  Then she looked at the girl's
bared bosom, and saw the rise and fall of normal, if sob-wracked
breathing. 

Smiling in relief, Irene turned back to the anxious Katrina. 
"Katrina, help me, please, to get our little nymph out of that
messy bed so you can change the linen. Sherla, let us clean you
up so that I can ensure that my diagnosis of your condition is
correct, but I don't think there is anything to worry about."

"Nothing to worry about?!??" both girls squawked.

~----------------~

"Her MONTHLY??!?" a relieved but disbelieving Katrina shrieked.

"More quietly, please, Katrina. We don't need to apprize the
entire hotel of that fact.  Not to mention the fact that we just
got Sherla calmed down enough to rest."

"But how could she not know that she was bleeding?  How could she
be flowing like that and not have known about it?"  Now Katrina
sounded almost disgusted.

"What happened?"  Irene asked, deciding not to go into the answer
to Katrina's question just yet. "All I know is from when you woke
from a very sound and pleasant sleep in that. . . . very unique
piece of sleep wear.  How did that scene in there just now come
to pass?"

"Well. . . we were. . .well, making love. . ."

"I quite inferred that given your state of dress, my dear.  What
happened AFTER that."

"We fell asleep, but I woke up later.  Sherla had rolled away
from me taking all the blankets.  I was going to demand my share
back, but realized I needed to visit the necessary first.  Inside
the water closet, I lit the oil lamp so I could see where I was
going.  I went to pull down my. . . ummm. . .my drawers," Irene's
naughty, knowing grin made the younger woman blush crimson but
she pressed on determinedly.  "And that was when I saw the dried
blood on the . . . on the thing.  It was very obvious and I knew.
. . .oh curse it, Tante Irene, I knew that she was not a virgin. 
Not that way, so it was not her rose d'amoure, her virgin's blood
on the . . .the thing."

"You knew she was not a virgin?  How?  Oh yes.  That day you were
both determined to protect the other because you each had taken
shameful advantage of the other?"

Katrina nodded.  "Anyway, I lit a taper using the flame of the
lamp and rushed back to the room.  When I woke Sherla, she
started to move, then groaned in extreme pain, unable to
straighten her knees from her belly.  I pulled the covers off and
we both saw all that red on the sheets and on her thighs.  Like I
told you earlier, she had been so demanding. . .insisting that I
. . go . . ever harder and faster."

"And so you assumed, as did Sherla, that you had hurt her. .
inside?"  Again, Katrina nodded.  "Well, I checked that journal
of hers.  She is several days late from what was her first
period, so I suspect that is a good deal of the reason that this
one hit her so hard."

"But, Tante Irene, how could any woman not know that her monthly
is upon her?  That makes no sense.  This should not have been
such a nasty surprise."

"Because our monthly friend has not been a part of her life
before, sweet.  You've been female for your entire life, and a
fertile woman for more than a third of that time.  Sherla has
been female for mere weeks, and that only after decades of being
a man.  This is, from my reading of her journal, only her second
monthly of her entire life."  Irene thought about their
afternoon's excursion, and grinned.  "And she did have a great
deal on her mind today that could easily have distracted her."

"Oh really?"  Katrina was suddenly intrigued.  She had seen the
young Herr Kreuger about the town and recognized him as a very
handsome man.  

"Indeed," Irene replied.  "She had to confront some new and
potentially for her, frightening feelings today."

"She told me she loved me today," Katrina said shyly, almost
afraid that admitting that gift might somehow undo the saying.

"Good."  Irene said firmly.  "That was one of the feelings she
had to deal with today.  I'm glad she thought to tell you so
soon.  It speaks well for the strength of her feelings for you
because I know that Sherlock never said those words to a woman."

"What happens now?"

"Well, if I am any judge of Eve's Curse, our Sherla is going to
have a very rough time for the next few days.  She was already
cramping rather severely when you took me in to see her."  Irene
gave a slightly malicious chuckle.  "Mere men have no idea of how
strong a woman must be to function with any degree of normalcy or
efficiency during her time of the month.  You and I have had
years of experience to inure us to most of the discomforts. 
Sherla has to learn to be strong during these days."

"I remember my first few times.  I thought I was going to die and
thought I wanted to, once or twice."

"Until I decided I wasn't going to let my own femininity get the
better of me, I felt much the same," Irene told the younger
woman.  "Sherla is your age physically, but we must always
remember that she is but a mere babe as a woman."

"Maybe I will go tend to her.  She'll need nursing, won't she?" 
Katrina said with an evil grin.

"She is liable to be a thorough and complete bitch, dear," Irene
warned her.

"And won't I enjoy telling her that?" Katrina's grin grew wider
as she strutted toward Sherla's bed chamber.  "Almost as much as
she'll hate hearing it."

~------------------~

Date: March 15, 1911

Entry in the Journal of Miss Sherla Joan Holmes 

Location: The Brienz Hotel, Brienz, Switzerland.

Time: 9:00 A.M.

My Dear Doctor Watson:

I am in the throes of my second menses, old friend, and,
according to my beloved, acting like a complete bitch.  Well, so
be it.  A bitch must feel better than I do at this moment.  My
god, John, do I have this bodily torment to face for four days,
every month for the rest of my now-extended life?  If I could
scream in writing, I would.  

In fact, consider it screamed!

My stomach is not merely rebellious, it has declared war on me. 
The merest smell of food, not to mention the sight of food, has
me crawling, literally, for the chamber pot.

The most grievous insult of all this, however, is that I have
been told I shall not be permitted (PERMITTED!!!) to participate
in our ongoing investigations until I am "more the thing,"
according to Irene.  I suspect she said it in that oh-so-very
condescending manner to get me to stiffen my British upper lip
and put this feminine atrocity behind me.  It should have worked
quite successfully, too, had my traitorous body not won that
particular confrontation.  I took a mere two steps to attempt to
follow Irene out of the bed chamber, and then barely made it back
to the chamber pot in time.  Extremely humiliating, John.  And
just when we have uncovered our first real clue in the person of
this, as yet, unseen poorly spoken Englishman.  Both Irene and I
are certain that this individual was Moriarty's advanced element,
coming here to make arrangements for whatever property that
currently serves as the Professor's lair.

Rosenlaui, once again, my dear friend.  If this clue proves to be
as telling as every instinct I possess tells me that it is, then
I shall soon enough be looking at the Reichenbach Falls.  The
last time I left that fearsome chasm, it was in the firm yet
mistaken belief that I had rid the world of Professor James
Moriarty forever.  

I shan't make such an error this time.  THIS time it ENDS here -
once and for all.

Oh, curse it, another cramp and it's a bad one.  Excuse me, John.

Date: March 15, 1911

Entry in the Journal of Miss Sherla Joan Holmes 

Location: The Brienz Hotel, Brienz, Switzerland.

Time: 9:23 A.M.

My Dear Doctor Watson:

I am back, obviously.  I shall never refer to women as the
"weaker sex" again.  I swear it.

Irene hypothesizes that my difficulty in dealing with this "time
of the month" has several possible causes.  First, she points out
that I am "late" since my last visit by this malady was more than
30 days ago and in her experience, women who are not regular tend
to suffer more when the even does arrive.  LATE, the woman says. 
My God, John, I have, throughout the course of my life, always
made an extraordinary effort to be meticulously punctual and now
my body is "late"?!?  I don't know whether to be embarrassed or
affronted - in addition to feeling absolutely vile, that is.

Her second supposition is that something may not be quite "right"
or complete about my feminine internal arrangements.  However, we
will only be able to ascertain that over time.  Especially in
light of her third possibility.

Watson, you will not credit this, but that heartless woman as
much called me a whining and spineless weakling!  Told me that
REAL women do not allow anything so banal as "a bit of bleeding
and some minor cramping" to inhibit them in this way, but she
would make allowances for me since I had not "grown up learning
to deal with such things with the innate courage, strength of
will and determination of the female of the species."

Good god, John, she as much told me to be quiet and bear up under
this female onslaught like a man!  Can you imagine, John?  I have
not yet proven myself, in Irene's eyes at least, to be man enough
to be considered fully a woman!  Heavens above, I would laugh at
that blatant contradiction in terms. . . .heavens, that
contradiction in genders, if the spasmodic movement of certain
gravely overtaxed abdomenal muscles would not send me back to my
now very familiar chamber pot.

In any case, I will be alone here in our hotel suite for the next
hour or so.  Irene is primping for her house visits with Herr
Kreuger the Elder, and Katrina as Karl, is off running an errand
for Irene.  I think (make that fervently HOPE) that she is
seeking a chemist who may have some remedy for the worst of this
. . . affliction.  At least Katrina will be here most of the day
since young Loche has started school again now that the snows
have cleared.

Damn. Irene was right - I AM whining.  I am actually glad I will
not be alone while I am miserable.  Well, I hereby make another
promise.  I will not take out my . . . not-so-very-minor comfort
on Katrina.

Really, I won't.  

But it will take a great deal of effort on my part, I am afraid.
In fact, the only time that I have had any semblance of comfort
during the night was when Katrina spooned her lovely warm bottom
into my painfully cramping belly.  HEAVENLY!  And of course,
being that close to Katrina, holding Katrina that close is
wonderful as well.

Unfortunately, or perhaps, in light of hindsight, fortunately, I
still had a very difficult time going to sleep, even with Katrina
so close and warm.  We began talking, about so many things.  I
don't believe that I ever. . .no, let me be honest . . I never
had a conversation such as that with a woman before.  It was long
overdue.  It all began when I shifted myself about for what must
have seemed like the hundredth time. . .

~-----------------~

"Can you not at least LIE STILL?" a tired, husky voice demanded. 

"Sorry," Sherla mumbled into Katrina's tangled tresses.  "Can't
seem to relax."

"Cramps again, Cherie?"  Katrina asked.

"Yes," was the unhappy reply.

Katrina turned over and pulled Sherla close, their pert bosoms
touching beneath their soft nightgowns.  "Let me rub your back
for you while I keep your belly warm with my body."

"But it is my stomach that is cramping," Sherla whined.

"Trust me, petite.  I have been dealing with the monthly visitor
far longer than you have." Katrina said as she began to press
firm fingers into the muscles of her lover's lower back.

"Ohhhh!" Sherla squealed with Katrina's knowing fingers found a
particularly knotted muscle.  That was followed by a nearly
ecstatic, "Ohhhhhhhhh."

"The belly muscles are being pulled from two places, Cherie.  The
front and the back, and we will deal with both."

"Thank you," Sherla sighed as she laid her head on the pillow
next to Katrina's.

Continuing her ministrations, Katrina thought a little
conversation might distract Sherla enough to fall asleep.  "So,
what happened yesterday that got you so excited that you didn't
realize something like this was impending?"

"Well. . . ."  Sherla wasn't sure where to start, or how much to
tell.  "We went sleigh riding with Hans-Peter Kreuger, the estate
agent's son, after Irene and his father spoke about our supposed
requirements for a house here in Switzerland."

"Ah HA!" Katrina said knowingly.  "I thought the very handsome
Herr Kreuger was involved."  Katrina felt Sherla go very still
and her already tight muscles lock up.  "Relax, dear.  You came
home to me."

"You're sure?"  Sherla asked, almost meekly.  "I mean, nothing
happened except flirting which Irene and you have both told me I
am to do. . . . but. . "

"But what, Cherie?  You were very excited when I arrived home. 
Am I to conclude that you wish to have this fine young man in
our. . . your bed?"

Again Sherla became quiet, but this time did not stiffen as she
considered the question.  Finally she sighed.  "I did become
excited and a great deal of it initially had to do with him. It
began when we first arrived at the office.  I am afraid I very
shamelessly and quite ruthlessly teased him."

"How?"  Katrina demanded.  "Surely you didn't" she said moments
later after Sherla had finished her recollection of the
interplay.

"I did, and had Irene explain the errors of my ways to me before
we boarded his sleigh.  Then I did as Irene directed, and acted
very shy, very. . . submissive for a while.  Then he began to
tease me back, very gently.  It was. . .rather sweet, actually."

"And this gentle flirtation so excited you?  You are fast,
Cherie," Katrina teased.

"I'm not sure.  My arousal started when I was teasing him.  I
must say it was very exciting to see him so . . .flustered by my
audacity.  He looked so like a school boy caught out at something
naughty, and he literally jumped to do my slightest bidding."

"And later?"

"Later, he managed to touch me - nothing overt or offensive
really - but he'd hold my hand longer than was quite necessary or
put his hand on my back to walk me to and from the sleigh."

"And you became more excited?" 

"Yes.  It was very . . compelling.  In some ways it felt like I
feel when we are . . . getting ready for, um, each other.  But in
some ways  it was  . . . different . . . " 

Sherla's eyes looked off into nothing, yet Katrina felt her
lover's nipples press sharply into her own soft bosom and knew
Sherla was becoming aroused by the memories she would not share. 

"A man can be . . . satisfying, sometimes," Katrina whispered
softly. 

Sherla's head lifted up and she looked into Katrina's sad eyes. 

"You don't like men," she said, though there was a question
lurking beneath that so blunt declaration. 

"I, um, don't really like men, it is true," Katrina replied. 
"But they are, uh, their bodies have, certain . . . abilities
that I can't provide." 

"You provide all I need," Sherla asserted, but Katrina thought
there was a still a question in her words. 

"Ma Cherie, it is not the same.  Do you not find that toy
satisfying, at times?" 

She felt, rather than saw, Sherla's response as she just nodded
silently against Katrina's breast. 

"Well, the real thing can be even more satisfying.  Though it can
seem almost as hard, there is still a pulsing warmth to it that
can be quite. . . . " 

Sherla's softly feminine voice held tones of worry and
uncertainty.  "Do you . . do you truly want me to take a man to
my bed?"

"Cherie, what I WANT is for you to be happy," Katrina replied
fervently, "Happy and satisfied in every way a woman can be
satisfied.  If that means a man, then that is what I want for
you."

"And you?"  Sherla asked, "I could not be satisfied without you."

A heated kiss was all the answer Katrina could give at that
moment, her throat tight with emotion.  When the kiss broke, both
women had tears streaming down their cheeks.  "I am glad,
petite," Katrina managed, her voice still husky with need and
other emotions, "For I am most desperately in love with you."

This time it was Sherla who felt the unmistakable signs of
arousal in her lover, though she was so distracted by her own
thoughts that she hardly noticed.  And when she did return from
her silent musings, her first thought was of the pain she still
saw in Katrina's eyes. 

"I had noticed that ours gets dreadfully cold.  Between times,
that is," Sherla said with a snicker as she tried to lighten
their suddenly somber mood. 

"I suppose we must fetch a basin of warm water then, hmmm?"
Katrina asked quietly, but Sherla's joke was not enough to clear
the anguish from her eyes.  "Ma Cherie, at some point you must .
. . experience. . .must KNOW the full measure of pleasure a
skilled and gentle man can give to a woman he cares for - to a
woman such as you.  You owe it to yourself." 

"Perhaps," Sherla said.  But she snuggled herself and in
particular, her still cramping belly closer to her warm and
cuddly bed mate and murmured, "But not immediately.  And not, I
think, with Kreuger-the-younger." 

"And why not?" Katrina asked, beginning to be mollified, yet
still worried about any chance that she was being selfish to
Sherla's detriment. 

"Well, he is a handsome man," Sherla giggled, "and very sweet in
the bargain, but in weather as cold as this?  Why, I'd be afraid
his . . . equipment . . .would break with MUCH less than the
stress I have come to enjoy." 

That earned Sherla a short giggle from her lover which gave her.
. . . other ideas.  Her slender fingers started tickling Katrina
in places only a true lover could have found, and only a ruthless
one would exploit. "And besides," Sherla added in her suddenly
squirming lover's ear, "I am currently too besotted with you to
want anyone else.  I LOVE you, you lovely French tart, every bit
as desperately as I know you love me!"  In moments, Katrina was
gasping for breath, begging for relief.  Relief Sherla was only
too happy to supply, despite her own inability to enjoy the same
for at least a little while. 

When she finally allowed her beloved to catch her breath, another
advantage of a real man came to Sherla.  She snickered and
whispered to the languid Katrina, "I suppose we would not be
walking so stiffly, if we had something a bit less, um,
unyielding than that so-rigid and too-often-frigid device." 

"Oh, don't be so sure, Ma Cherie," Katrina whispered back, her
saucy grin once more firmly displayed.  "Some men have equipment
so much larger than that little toy that you would hardly be able
to walk at all.  Though, one could not fault the durability of
our device.  No man has that much endurance." 

Sherla made no reply.  At least, no verbal reply.  But the heat
of her arousal made any pretense of secrecy worse than useless. 
Not for the first time, she cursed the sensitivity that made even
the most loving of caresses intolerable at that time.  Then a
sudden yawn caught her by surprise.

"Ah, so Momma-Katrina's back rub is having the desired effect, is
it? All right, no more talk.  YOU will need what sleep you can
get."

"But I am not sleepy," Sherla protested as another huge yawn took
her.

~-----------------~

Only I did fall asleep, John, but mere moments later, and managed
to sleep fairly restfully until dawn.

It has been a very full twenty-four hours, John.  I don't quite
know where this will all lead, but I am looking forward to the
journey.

Farewell, my friend.  I am going to try and rest.  Irene assures
me that the worst of this will be over with tomorrow.  I should
very much like to be asleep for as much of the time until then as
is possible.

End of Journal entry.